Thursday, October 21, 2004

Losing the game.....

Everyone loses. No one "wins" all the time. There are some that 'appear' to win maybe to us, but they don't really. Have you had anyone close to you die? Have you ever loved someone but they didn't love you back? Have you ever had a friend leave a friendship? Have you lost a job? A tennis match? They have too. Guaranteed. What is the most important is how you pick yourself up and get it together after the fact. You can chose your course and that is what will define you. Make your defining moments shining ones...don't dwell in the bad but focus on the better part of yourself that gets you through it. Losing is no fun...but find a way to smile through what has been lost...Reach forward with all you have.

Remember: If the winner really took it all.....then why would they ever try again :)

for hs

Wednesday, October 20, 2004

Remember where you come from....

I know everyone has things they remember about someone growing up. Just being small and them being so big and just -- you know, everything they say is THE DEAL. My Dad and I have disagreed on a lot of things. A LOT. (smile @ my Dad) Before I would leave the house to go to a party, or a dance or work...my Dad always said, "Remember where you come from". When I was 16, I would find every imperfection of my family and say "OK Dad -- Aunt Ethel had a drug problem -- I'll remember that" (No Aunt Ethel - no drug problem - just an example of things I would pick out) But now that I am older, I think about that simple saying....Whenever I am doing the most normal thing, its in my mind... How am I presenting myself to others? Not so much, do they like me, but am I giving them every reason in the world to like me? Am I kind? Am I honest? Do I treat them with respect? Do I use profanity? Do I smile a lot? Do I present a good attitude? My Dad is by no means riding the perfect truck. But what he does is smile, doesn't use profanity, has a great attitude, and treats others with respect. Its nothing about his fatherly duties that I remember from where I come....

Remember: (psst read the title :) )

Thursday, October 14, 2004

Seasons Change

Fall is settling in here...today is the first really cold day we've had. I'm wearing a jacket and still freezing (nothing unusual there)....Its wierd that first day you notice this "change"...No more sandals -- shorts are packed away. The seasons always change. Always. As long as time continues to pass, we will have seasons.

That is the way life is too. In life I think we have more than four...but in reflection -- its still "seasons" to me. We go through "seasons" where things change - and sometimes its gradual and sometimes not. For example, High School -- BIG season...for some of us - more stormy than others. But then one day, we're not in high school anymore. That season has passed.

This morning, I was thinking something I have thought a lot in my 31 years...What do I want to be when I grow up? But just today, I discovered I'm past that season. I am grown up. It was a harsh reality but I am in a new season. Where if I don't do it now, I won't ever....

What season are you in? Have you watched your life pass you by? Have you LIVED? Have you done what you said you would do? Don't let it pass you by....

Remember: On the first cold day of the year, carry a kleenex for that nose sting! :)

Wednesday, October 13, 2004

When I Dream....

The TV static is in my ear and I feel the long day in my body. My eyelids are like heavy curtains just waiting to shut out the light. I cannot resist the pressure they bring any longer and sleep overcomes me. My mind begins its prime time of shows. My sister, my husband, my parents, old college roomates, high school boyfriends, new friends....all of them playing their role past present and future in my life. I wear pink a lot in these episodes, it is my favorite color. Who am I? I'm riding my yellow big wheel with my sister. I'm the girl playing foosball at rascals in the green sweater on the blue team. I'm driving my roommate's red Nissan because he is too drunk to drive home. I'm the one spinning a bright yellow flag at the football games. I'm with my niece who loves green. I'm with my husband on his black motorcycle fearing for my life. I'm dancing like a crazy girl in a red dress with someone I have never met.....I'm sweating and can't...stop...dancing....The music is getting louder. The CD is skipping. Someone check it. Please! How annoying....Wait...that isn't music.....

--sigh--

When I dream, I dream in color.

When i wake up, its to a horrible alarm clock....

Remember: Dream in color -- Black and White went out YEARS ago

Tuesday, October 12, 2004

$1.47 thanks

What is your self worth? What are you worth? Not your net worth you business fanatics, but your self worth? How much do you value yourself? I, like the stock market, have "bull market" and "bear market" days....I think that a lot of people don't advertise themselves properly therefore selling themselves short - myself included. Its hard to constantly promote yourself in your own mind let alone the rest of the world. But honestly no one else is going to do it for you or me. I wish for everyone reading this, to consider your marketablity. If you were on the shelf with millions of other yous, what can you do to be more "expensive?" I know what I have to do.....Come Christmas time, you'll have to use your visa to get me!!! ;)

Remember: If you find something on sale and you use a maxed out credit card, you're not saving anything.....

Dear Mom,

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